Waiting for the other shoe

Well another week has been successful and fairly easy. I get very suspicious when things go good...especially when they go good for a long time. Then I start wondering when something is going to go wrong. I'm trying to take things day by day and go with the flow. Seems to be working thus far. Work has been good. Our poor secretary has had so much to do that I have been helping in the mornings. I don't mind doing it, but it hasn't left much time for me to get my things done so the work is piling on. They interviewed for a 4 hour position to help her out so soon I won't need to be helping anymore. Today it was easy since the phones weren't working so we couldn't get in any outside calls. Fairly quiet. :) M went back to school today and it seems all went well. She was very excited to show me a toy horse she got to take home for the weekend because she was such a good listener. It's strange now that I finally don't feel like such an outcast at her school. Last year I would go and wait for her in the cafeteria until school let out and it seemed like all the parents knew eachother and I just was "there." I tried to make conversation which although is getting easier for me I still find it difficult. Really I only talked with M's friend Ryan's mom. Unfortunately she always waited in her car for him so we never talked a whole lot, but this year is nice because one of my co-workers daughter just started kindergarten so we both pick up the girls so I feel like I have someone I can talk to now. Plus knowing some of the teachers is nice too. The office staff knows me because of M's fall causing her to get stitches and of course her record at the school for the most times throwing up. She leaves a legacy already. haha! I kind of like the way things are right now that I am almost am thinking two kids is enough, but I just feel like I am too young to make that decision completely. It's funny how in a year how much more easier things become. They become harder too in new ways...like tantrums, but I think that will happen in every stage. Tomorrow we go and celebrate cousin Lily's 3rd birthday. All of her tests have come back good. She goes back in December and if everything is good she won't have to go back to the doctor for another year. It's really a day to celebrate. Monday my grandma is having a biopsy done. She is still having bladder issues so this is the last resort to find out what is the problem. I know she is very fearful of it, but she wants to find out what's going on. As we all do. So say a little prayer. I guess I will stop rambling for tonight.

We made it the first week

Well we made it a full week of school and today M was home with strep. Since we didn't get the results of the culture until 5:30 this evening she gets to miss tomorrow too since she has to be on antibiotics for 24 hours. Wow.

For one time only

Me again! For one time only will you probably see pictures of the girls. These were taking in August over at their grandpas house on the backsteps. I love these ones.

I am currently having issues with my laptop at work so they loaned me a newer one so I am able to put pictures up here. Unfortunately I will have to give this one up as soon as my other is fixed. For some reason that one won't let me upload photos. So before Monday you may find more on here. Cheers!

The First Day of School 1st Grade

I figure there will be many more first days of school so I might as well label it 1st grade. I was actually more prepared and more comfortable going back to work this year than any year before. Possibly because we are in a different building so I feel like everyone is on an even playing field. Maybe it's because I've been there long enough now. Maybe it's just because last year was so tough having to leave L and having M start kindergarten that this year feels just like a breeze. Anyway, I was quite surprised how both M and I got back into the groove on things fairly quickly. Tuesday morning I woke her up and we had breakfast together. We got ready and took some pictures and I walked her down to the bus. I ran back into the house to get something and saw the bus was coming so I quick ran back down and asked her for a hug and she said "Mom, the bus is coming!" and I said I know, but give me a hug, which she did and then I waved at her and told her to have a good day and as she was getting on the bus she didn't even turn back. Just threw her arm back and waved. It was nice to see her same bus driver as last year and hear his nice "Good morning M!". She was more than happy to inform him that she was 6 now. Off she went and off I started crying. I don't remember crying last year, but for some reason this year seemed harder and after discussing it with some coworkers they brought it to my attention that it was most likely the fact that M wasn't missing me. That she was comfortable enough this year that she was just ready. Last year she was ready for school, but I still knew she was going to miss me, but this year she was just ready to go and do her thing. The rest of the days flew by and have been really good. We are studying her sight words which she seems to remember from last year and next week she has her first spelling test so we have been practicing. She has been sleeping in the dark now. Also she has just turned into a fish. Everytime she takes a bath she is so excited to show me how she puts her whole head in the water and holds her breath. You just watch your kids for so long and then one day they have done something new and it's just incredible. L has been doing real good too staying home with daddy this week. I am so glad daddy had off this week. It was easier to get into a routine. So one week down and next week we will see what comes.

How can I love you even more?!

So it dawned on me today while I was walking hand in hand with L that this age (almost 18 months) is my favorite. Of course I look at M and I love watching her grow all together, but with L today I was just reminded of how much I fell in love with M even more at this age. I looked at L and she just seemed like a little person now and not a baby. She changes more and more every day. She is finally getting into books and is obssessed with the photo albums and pointing to the pictures. She enjoys trying to get her clothes on and is starting with "What's that?" for everything. My husband has been working so much that pretty soon I joke she is going to be calling him daddy-na nigh because he sleeps during the day and I always am telling her that he is na night. For the last week or so she has been really picking up on daddy and mama and really using it when she is talking to us. Last week it was Da-die, but tonight she finally said Daddy. And for the past couple of days anytime she has needed to have my attention it has been Mama.. Mama..Mama.. until she gets my attention. I also love that she says bath now. When she tries to say it she says Ba and then sticks her tongue way out when she is trying to make the th sound. It's cute. I love how I can be going along and then all of the sudden I am shocked by something she says or does and I find myself saying "I didn't know you knew that!" I find that with M too. Tonight in the bathtub she was actually putting her head under the water and holding her breath. A year ago she would have freaked out if water got in her eyes, but I think with all the swimming with Grace that she sees someone her age doing it. Last week we went swimming and I heard a big splash and saw M completely under water and I thought "I have to get to her before she comes up and starts freaking out and starts drowning!" , but she came back up and wiped her eyes dry and I asked her if she jumped in on purpose to which she said "Yep!". I about had a heart attack...I didn't realize she had become so fearless, but I am so happy. We met her teacher on Wednesday. I think she and M will get along. M's desk is right across the room from her best friend Ryan. Now they can stare into eachothers eyes all day. (haha!) Actually his mom called me on Wednesday and said that Ryan was so excited M was in his class and he wanted to talk to her. So they talked and talked for a good 5 minutes. I think that's fairly long considering I can't get M to talk on the phone to anyone. She was so excited. She wanted to call him so bad over the summer, but I didn't want his mom to think I was crazy letting my 5/6 year old call her 6 year old on the phone. Soon she will be on the phone all the time. I feel I will soon enter the stage where my parents were at and wonder " How can she be with her friends all day at school and still have stuff to talk about after school. " It has been a good last week. Hard to believe Tuesday we will be back in school, but then again time goes so fast I always know soon it will be summer again. It's funny though that just when I think I can't love the girls anymore than I already do I find out that everyday I love them more and more. M and I have been playing the game LIFE the last few nights and when she gets married I always pretend I am crying and she always says "Come on mom, quit crying." She already knows I'm an emotional bag. I am very excited to see what changes and adventures lie ahead for her in 1st grade and to see all the changes L goes through too. I am so blessed. The last month has been hard. I've felt more like a single parent than ever before, but the kids definently keep me occupied and soon the husband will have time off...unfortunatley I'll be back at work, but it will be nice to have him home again.